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August 28, 2006 - Posted by | Gurukula, Gurukuli, Hare Krishna


  1. Is this representative of what was published, or is it all of them?

    Comment by Madhava Gosh | August 28, 2006 | Reply

  2. There were a couple more issues produced. Before “As It Is” there was “ISKCON Gurukula Vetrans Journal” published by Raghunatha anudasa. “Spirit – Not This Body” published by Manu followed “As It Is.”

    Comment by chaitanyamangala | August 28, 2006 | Reply

  3. When I look back on the days of As It Is, they seem like the golden age of gurukuli endeavors. Of course, those days were not actually without their fair share of drama and conflict; but at least it seemed like something was happening, and that we were on the move.

    More than anything, there was a group of enthusiastic gurukulis all working together on an ongoing basis. From the two magazines that had been produced before As It Is, both producers came onto the As It Is team; and the one magazine that was produced afterwards was also by one of the team. So As It Is seems to be the magazine where the strands all came together for a short time, including some financial support, and including contributions from a variety of other interested gurukulis, including myself.

    You probably remember, Chaits, when the As It Is team fell apart, and I called you and was saying that the magazine must somehow continue. I have actually come to see it a bit differently as time has passed. I’ve come to see the magazine as the physical, literary expression of what was going on at that time: gurukulis were coming to reunions for the first time, and both you and I wrote articles about reunions to communicate what the reunions were like and all about; gurukulis were working together and on behalf of other gurukulis, and this was expressed by the messages and photos on the editorial page; besides just seeing old friends from the ashram again, we were also meeting gurukulis from other ashrams, as well as members of the opposite sex, and getting to know them, which was expressed very well by the profile pages; we were exploring and developing careers, which was expressed in introduction to career articles, one of which was on sales, done by myself, and one of which was on Bharat Natyam (which provided quite a good contrast); we were grappling with the older generation over issues such as dating and association with the opposite sex, which expressed itself in your political article, “A Playful Plea” (which I actually thought was the most important piece published by As It Is (with the possible exception of the reunion articles)); there were some reviews, but reviews connected to issues of importance to us, such as the review, Chaits, that you did of that movie “Breaking Down,” which seemed to have to do with the search for meaning in a world that can sometimes seem very meaningless; or there was the review I did of the book “Pulling Your Own Strings,” which can be seen as connected to breaking free of the influence of the parents; there were humorous stories (two of which are actually posted on this blog) which illustrated how religious practices can easily become dogmatic, as well as our own resistance to dogmatic approaches; and there was actually a fair bit more too that I can’t remember without having the magazines right in front of me (and I hope everyone will forgive me for naturally remembering very clearly what my own contributions were). Even the title, As It Is, while certainly being a play on Srila Prabhupada’s Bhagavad-gita, seems to me to have a subtext of “As We Are” (which is how it would be put if applied to persons such as ourselves), suggesting that we were presenting an authentic expression of ourselves, and that we were looking to be accepted for who we really were. So the magazines were very much an expression of those times and of those who took part in them.

    And now that I look back at it, it seems like actually the perfect number of them was produced. There’s three of them, and that’s a sacred number, and it’s kind of cool that they are what they are. Looking at all three, quite a bit of different material was included, and the magazines found their way to many diffferent persons, both gurukuli and first generation. In fact, I suspect that many gurukulis first heard about the reunions through those magazines. So it’s like they had a particular purpose, and that purpose was achieved by three of them. They are what they are, “As It Is,” just like the title says.

    Not only that, but most importantly, they were very high quality: professional looking layout, very competent writing and editing (besides my own, of course), and full-color glossy covers. So I really see the magazines as objects of pride amongst the gurukulis, and as evidence of the sort of quality projects we can carry out when we work together. I think this is why those magazines are still preserved and treasured by many gurukulis (and you can be sure that I still have own my copies safely stored away). This has made me see that there is actually quite a big difference between an online production, which is comparitively very easy, and all the work involved in an actual paper production. The paper production will probably still exist long, long after temporary weg-pages have disappeared.

    At any rate, perhaps, in the not so distant future, there will once again come a time when the gurukulis will be working together on an ongoing basis, and it will feel like something is actually happening and that we are on the move, and we will once again produce a magazine with the same high standards and quality as As It Is.

    Well, Chaits, besides my views on the significance of As It Is, I actually have a connected question for you. I know that one of the original four editors exited the team after the production of the first issue. He actually came and mentioned it to me at the time, though I don’t remember exactly what he said. It was something like, “They just refuse to work with me” (but don’t respond to that, because I don’t remember exactly). At any rate, I should have inquired further at that time, but I was somewhat oblivious to certain things in those days, and probably ran off to get a cup of coffee instead.

    The only thing that I do in fact know is that this person and one of the other editors were both chasing after the same girl one year, and the other editor seemed to have developed quite a disliking for the evicted one. But, although I can definitely see this causing problems, could this have been all there was to it? Or were there other reasons, involving the other editors as well? Bearing in mind that the evicted party could possibly run into this, do you think you could give an objective-as-possible account of what happened from your perspective, including if any party was to blaim (based on the facts), and whether there was a lesson to be learned from the episode? So that’s my question.

    Comment by Aniruddha d.B. Sherbow | September 23, 2006 | Reply

  4. Aniruddha,

    Your writing certainly reflects the mood of the “As It Is” time period (approximately 1991 through 1994). Your efforts and insights were greatly appreciated then (as they are now). I see it as a time when the gurukulis from our age group got together and made our presence known in ISKCON. Though, for three reasons I’d prefer to call that era something like the “idealistic early days” rather than the “golden age.”

    First, at that time, we had a more innocent and naive view of how the gurukula related issues would be resolved. On some level we thought that all we would have to do is make people aware of some of the bad things that happened in gurukula. Upon understanding these things the “Society” would receive us with open arms, the abusers would be chastised, and the problems would be corrected. Looking back a decade later, with all that has transpired since, we can easily understand how this was an overly optimistic assessment.

    Second, rather than seeing that time period as the highlight of all gurukuli endeavors I consider it part of a gradual progression. Dealing with the gurukula related issues has been a long and challenging process, one that is nowhere near completion. It is full of complex issues that dig deep into the darkest corners of ISKCON’s past. In the 90’s our age group (gurukulis who are currently aged 35 and above) spent a lot of our volunteer efforts organizing ourselves and getting our message heard. This manifest in the forms of Gurukuli Reunions, various publications, websites, intergenerational meetings, non-profit organizations, deciding whether or not to take part in law suits, and so on.

    Third, the next wave of gurukulis (those who are now approximately 30 years old) are proudly standing on our shoulders and continuing to push things forward. From our efforts they are now able to move away from some of the negative areas and begin to focus on the positive. Kulimela is a prime example of that. The key organizers, Kapila, Bala, Bhimasena and Govinda Ghosh, all spent about two years preparing for an event that brought together over 600 Kulis from around the world. I’d describe it as a reunion on steroids. To give you some perspective, there were over 200 Kuli volunteers running the event. That’s more volunteers than the total number of attendees at an average Reunion!

    At Kulimela, Raghu, Manu and I (three of the four As It Is editors) had a chance to sit together and reflect on those early days, witness some of the fruits of our efforts, and serve with an incredibly talented crew. Kulimela showed that there is a lot of positive energy ready to be channeled. “Project Future Hope” is still “alive and kicking.” I really wish you had been there to experience it and help to focus the some of the seemingly unlimited opportunities.

    I sincerely encourage you to take part in the next one.

    Comment by chaitanyamangala | September 24, 2006 | Reply

  5. Chaits,

    Thanks for your kind comments about my “efforts and insights,” as you kindly put them. To tell you the truth, I just try to help out and try to make sense of it all as best I can. I should also mention, for anyone else that may be reading this, that Chaits was the one who actually proposed to me that I make the three different writing contributions that I did for As It Is. So I did appreciate being tapped to contribute in that way.

    Perhaps “golden age” is not quite the right description for those days, but I’m not sure “idealistic early days” is either. I wouldn’t want to give the impression that our ideals were wrong or unrealistic, but I will agree that we may have been unrealistic about the amount of time it would take to resolve our various issues and achieve our ideals. I believe, Chaits, that is your main point (although if you actually think some of our ideals were wrong or unrealistic, I’m sure you will say).

    It’s actually not so easy to characterize those days in any simple formula; but I do know what I think we were doing right, and what I think needs to happen again. Probably the most important thing is that there was “A Gurukuli Center,” by which I mean there was a center for organizing gurukuli events, putting out the magazine, and for representing our concerns politically with the Movement. I could describe that center as “Gurukuli Alumni Incorporated” (GAI, which was the formal non-profit corporation), which would be pretty accurate, except that I must definitely include many participating gurukulis that were not actually directors. Probably a better description of that gurukuli center is “Project Future Hope.” Very importantly, it was ongoing, rather than only being limited to organizing a single event; and that gave a feeling of being on the move and of making progress.

    So how did GAI differ from other centers or other event organizers or other political representatives that we have had in the years that followed? Other centers would be the ISKCON Youth Ministry or Children of Krishna. But there has never been a feeling that these are truly representative centers for the gurukulis. The ISKCON Youth Ministry appears to be mainly focused on providing bus tours for teenage gurukulis, and Children of Krishna was pretty much exclusively focused on providing grants. Furthermore, neither of these institutions ever garnered the sort of widespread support among the gurukulis that was present for the group connected to Project Future Hope. Is this because they were created by ISKCON? Is it because the leaders were selected by ISKCON? Is it because they had some sort of ISKCON-centered agenda? I’m not sure, but I suspect something like this is the case. All I know is that we criticize these centers much more than we praise them, and they are not really seen as being representative of the gurukulis.

    As for events or event organizers, I believe (and hope) that this is what has probably remained most true to gurukuli ideals (although it’s been several years since I’ve attended). With these, the persons with the natural drive and inspiration will step up to the plate to organize, and others will step up to see to the prasad or a play or a party. So these, I believe, probably continue in the natural way. And thank God, because for persons who have a lot of energy to manifest, and have absolutely no doors of opportunity with the Movement, getting involved with the reunions is probably the only outlet available for their energies, and the only way to show what they can do. The only thing, of course, is that reunions tend to be more of a celebration, rather than being concerned with longer range goals; and the whole team generally comes apart right after. Another way to put it is that reunions are great, but we also need to be doing more than just organizing and enjoying reunions.

    Finally, with political goals, the only one worth mentioning is the lawsuit. I’m not going to get too into this, but I will mention that the lawsuit has been very controversial, including amongst gurukulis, and that the whole thing comes apart once the lawsuit is resolved.

    I should also mention the websites and forums. These have the ongoing thing, but they have not tended to be politically active. Rather, they provide an infrastructure for gurukulis to connect and stay in contact with one another. These are fine, but once again, the idea is that we should be building something more from these.

    So Chaits, you’re right when you say that all these things have been going on all these past years; there’s just no sense of unity to it all. And if there is any progress, it seems to be in fits and starts, or only limited to some of us rather than all of us. Thank goodness, I suppose, that the reunions remain a sort of steady baseline; but I think that they should also be the starting off point for quite a lot more.

    I tell you what: instead of “The Golden Age,” I will call that time “A Time of Great Hopes,” after “Project Future Hope.” The key is that there was an ongoing center devoted to gurukuli progress. That is what has been lacking all these years.

    Now I did not mean to give the impression that those days represented the highlight of gurukuli endeavors. Far from it. I believe we are capable of much, much greater things. However, I do believe we were on the right track, and that we need to once again establish an authentic gurukuli center to have any real hope of making solid progress as a group. So when I look backwards and praise those days, it’s because there was something going on then that has been lacking ever since.

    Well, Chaits, I’m done clarifying my position. Now I must address some serious points that you have made. You wrote, “the next wave of gurukulis (those who are now approximately 30 years old) are proudly standing on our shoulders and continuing to push things forward.”

    I’ll just be straightforward and say that I believe the main job of pushing things forward lies with us, those in our age group. The next wave (as they are referred to) does in fact have some pretty powered-up gurukulis. But I have no interest in them standing on my shoulders. What they can do is step up and work alongside us. With the reunions, I believe it is different. With those, it is right to pass the torch. But when it comes to pushing things forward, in the truest sense of opening up new horizons for the gurukulis, there is no question of leaving our group out of anything, or of us only supporting from behind or from underneath. We are the ones that should be at the forefront.

    Actually, with what lies before us, I don’t believe overemphasizing the difference between the first and second waves really serves any purpose. As I said, they should now be carrying the torch with the reunions (which are very youth-oriented anyway). But what I’m talking about now is bringing everything together: that is, the heavy-hitters from the first wave, as well as the heavy-hitters from the second wave, without any undue distinction.

    The second point I must address, Chaits, is your statement, “From our efforts they are now able to move away from some of the negative areas and begin to focus on the positive.” Whenever anyone starts referring to anything as “negative,” I get a bit worried (and I’m worried that some among the younger set, in particular, may see us in that way). What I have found is that this actually refers to moving away from some of our members and excluding them, because they are seen as “negative.” Or it means running away from problems. Furthermore, even those members who are included will feel a split, because any problems they have will be seen as “negative,” and they will feel like they cannot address their problems.

    That is what “negative” means: there are problems or unresolved issues. Some of us have lots of them, and I think all of us have at least some. For example, almost all gurukulis are excluded from being involved with the Movement. Furthermore, almost all our parents are excluded too. So we almost all suffer from such so-called “negative” problems. In fact, what I have found is that the more we try to avoid such problems, the more they are right in front of us, staring us in the face.

    So I don’t believe the answer is to move away from them. That is what ISKCON does. They never want to discuss any of the problems, but would rather just discuss Krsna-katha. But Krsna-katha sounds alot better once the problems have been resolved.

    Furthermore, I see myself as a problem-solver. Instead of moving away, I dive in and try to figure out solutions. I like being a problem-solver. In fact, I’m proud of being a problem-solver. So I don’t want anyone trying to put me out of business by excluding all the people with problems. The best way to look at things is that every problem is an opportunity in disguise. So my solution is that we try to resolve every problem to the best of our abilities, rather than moving away, or excluding anyone.

    Actually, Chaits, I believe you are a problem-solver too. That is what you were doing when you wrote “A Playful Plea.” So don’t go putting yourself out of business either.

    Just to deal with a bit of old business, that question about the ousting of one of the Editors probably wasn’t suitable material to get into on the blog. So don’t worry about answering that.

    And finally, with regard to taking part in the event next year, it depends how much I have on my plate. We’ll have to see, so no promises.

    Comment by Aniruddha d.B. Sherbow | September 26, 2006 | Reply

  6. Aniruddha,

    Thanks for your clarifications. Once again your “efforts and insights” bring things into better focus. I generally agree with the points you brought up. This week has been a very busy/hectic week for me. I’ll write you more soon.

    Comment by chaitanyamangala | September 29, 2006 | Reply

  7. Chaits,

    I was just checking out that Brijbasi Spirit post you put up today. It’s great to see those old photos: it feels like I’m looking back on some mythological era.

    Anyways, I know how it is with the hectic schedule. Actually, I’m having my fair share of hectic karma myself. I tell you what: since we’re both experiencing some hecticness at the moment, maybe it would be a good idea take a little break from our discussion until things quiet down a bit – after all, there’s no point in stressing ourselves out unnecessarily. Serious though these topics may be, the idea is not to drive ourselves to exhaustion, or to the point of neglecting our other duties. I tell you what: say no more, and I’ll write again when I have more time, we can see how you’re doing at that time too, and hopefully we can pick up where we left off.

    Until then, may the essence continue to be found in very large amounts,
    Aniruddha d.B. Sherbow.

    Comment by Aniruddha d.B. Sherbow | October 1, 2006 | Reply

  8. Aniruddha,

    Thanks for being understanding and flexible with correspondence. Last week I was super busy moving the office where I work. For the last two years I worked from home. Now the office is an approximately 45 minute drive (each direction). This now has me spending an additional 8 hours per week in my vehicle. The joys of the daily commute in Los Angeles! I’m sure I’ll adjust to the new schedule soon and find a balance for my time.

    I’m curious, what’s got you busy these days?

    I do want to continue our conversation. I think we are touching on some important topics. I am glad that we can spread it out a bit more. So you don’t have to keep checking back wondering if I’ve written, I’ll have something posted by the end of this weekend.

    Comment by chaitanyamangala | October 2, 2006 | Reply

  9. Aniruddha,

    As I mentioned previously, I generally agree with the points you raised.

    The “idealistic” part of those early days had more to do with the amount of time we thought it would take to resolve various issues. As we can see, some of the more challenging issues are still unresolved. A few may be with us for the rest of our lives.

    A “Time of Great Hopes” is an excellent way to describe those early days. Having an ongoing gurukuli center where several “heavy hitters” worked together was a big part of the reason why there was so much progress during that time.  Also, having an organization independent of ISKCON is important for gathering widespread support amongst the gurukulis. There can be cooperation and respect, but being a subsidiary and/or co-dependant on ISKCON changes the dynamics and creates some of the criticisms you mentioned.

    Reunions, magazines, websites, and forums have been important ways to keep connected. Without them our small group would most likely have dispersed in ways similar to other “second generation” groups from other Western “Hindu” groups.  As you say, these are a baseline.  We have plenty of opportunities to build something more.

    Our age group (35+) can continue to lead the way by doing our best to show how to appropriately take on the growing responsibilities in our lives. This kind of example is something you and I do not have within the confines of ISKCON.  We have no older age group to look up to as an example of what we can expect as we reach the next stage.  Frankly, we were mistreated as children, filled with unrealistic and unachievable ideals and kicked to the curb when we did not live up to those expectations.  Since then we’ve had to stumble around on our own, with little or no support and guidance.  Considering all that, I think we’ve done pretty well.

    Those gurukulis who are younger than us at least have the advantage of observing us and learning from our experiences.  Over the past couple of years several younger gurukulis (now in their early 30’s) mentioned that they were inspired to improve their lives based on conversations they had with me.  Two of them recently graduated from college and said my influence played a major part in their decision to pursue a degree.

    For many in our age group, the natural progression of life has given us more and more duties. These responsibilities vie for our attention. We find ourselves devoting less time towards gurukuli related volunteer activities.  As our age group’s efforts become more focused on other things, a new group is stepping forward to continue the efforts. Because they don’t have to start from scratch (as we did) they are able to improve the things we worked hard to establish. That they want to continue is proof that our efforts and ideals are worthwhile and fill a societal need beyond our original intent. As our lives allow, we can continue to work with them offering our efforts, experience, expertise, money, etc. During the times other obligations keep us from working with them we can encourage them to continue and appreciate the progress they achieve.

    Many “problem-solvers” are also “heavy-hitters” regardless of the age group. I am not one to shy away from problems and I tend to surround myself with other problem-solvers (like you!).  Combining the efforts and talents of the different age groups is important. At the same time, because of our varying interests, we do have to be aware that there are distinctions. We need the younger group to recognize and respect that our age group has some specific unresolved issues that we will continue to pursue until we find some satisfactory resolution. At the same time, our age group needs to acknowledge that these issues may not be as relevant to the younger ones and accept that some of their priorities may differ from ours. 

    I am glad to know that the younger gurukulis did not have the same kinds of negative childhood experiences growing up in/around ISKCON that we did. The unresolved problem areas we are addressing are pretty specific to a certain segment of Kulis. This is an area where we have to lead the way.  These issues are ours to resolve.  No one else will do it for us.  We can continue to make others aware of what happened and educate and remind them to ensure it does not happen again.  Just as important, we have to be careful not to inappropriately place our burdens and frustrations on others.

    It is a challenge and an opportunity for us to create and maintain an open and inclusive atmosphere in an increasingly diversified group. 

    Comment by chaitanyamangala | October 8, 2006 | Reply

  10. Chaits,

    I think we are in agreement on most of what we have been discussing; and with whatever is left over, I think it’s just a matter of some further discussion on a few points. I had mentioned that I’ve been rather busy (like yourself), but I’ll spare you the details. Suffice it to say that between ongoing projects and just seeing to the basics, my schedule is a very full one. Between that and making sure to do these subjects proper justice, it may take me as long as two weeks to write a proper response. So hang on – a response is indeed on the way.

    Comment by Aniruddha d.B. Sherbow | October 11, 2006 | Reply

  11. Aniruddha,

    It’s been a few years since we’ve had the good fortune to see each other and share info on our lives. When you have time, I’d like to hear some of the details! I don’t want you to feel rushed or pressured, so take your time with your responses.  I look forward to reading your contributions.

    Comment by chaitanyamangala | October 15, 2006 | Reply

  12. Chaits,

    It’s interesting, there has been kind of a slow build-up of things over the last few years, all coming to a point right at this time. Our conversations have actually helped to focus my attention on where and what action is needed.

    The first thing is ISKCON. I’ve been trying to work with them over the last few years – and had actually given up on them – when that scholarship program popped up out of the blue. But even that program, specifically for gurukulis, was not open to myself, which was really the last straw. So I’ve come to the conclusion that it’s time for me to completely cut my ties with ISKCON. I’m tired of being ignored, not welcome, and so on. It’s become a drain. It’s just not working out, and I’m tired banging my head against the wall.

    The second thing is Krsna consciousness. Unlike back when we knew each other in LA, I had actually gotten quite into studying the philosophy, reading Srila Prabhupada’s books, and so on. But this has also not led to anything. I was following so nicely when I went to see Narayana Maharaja, and then he criticized me for not being in the association of Vaishnavas. As for ISKCON, they say they would love to engage us if only we were following, but I have proven that this is not the case. Even Srila Prabhupada was engaged by his godbrothers before he was totally on his own. My only conclusion must be that Lord Krsna actually desires me to do something else besides being a Krsna bhakta. Perhaps I will have better fortune if I become a Christian or a Muslim, who are also considered Vaishnavas, just as Srila Prabhupada states in Chapter 18 of Teachings of Queen Kunti:

    “Christians and Muslims are also Vaisnavas, devotees, because they offer prayers to the Lord.”

    Finally, there are the gurukulis. I used to feel like I had a lot in common with other gurukulis, but increasingly I have felt like I don’t actually fit in. I feel like I am one of the ones who is considered to be “negative,” “inappropriately” burdening others with my concerns, and who is “a challenge” to include, just as you described. This is not an acceptable situation to me. What it means to be a gurukuli seems to have morphed into something else in the years since I was very involved, and has now come to the point where it does not mean someone like me. Of course, I am technically a gurukuli, since I went to gurukula; but I don’t seem to match with the other meanings that have come into being, whatever exactly they happen to be – just like a gurukuli that eats beef would not really be accepted among other gurukulis. If you find yourself holding positions that are not supported by a single other person among hundreds of the same group, it certainly makes one question whether one actually belongs with that group. The ironic thing is that I actually thought I was making some sort of valuable contributions, which just goes to show how deep our illusions can go. I feel like the main mass of gurukulis has moved in one direction and I have moved in another, and remaining connected to each other is holding both of us back. So the time has come to renounce my gurukuli status, and cut all ties with gurukulis, and then the group can freely develop without someone like myself holding it back, and I will also be free to develop without the group. So I now formally sever all of those ties.

    Sometimes I have felt like I have been all alone trying to solve some of these gurukuli issues and like I am trying to shoulder this huge burden all on my own. However, although I have certainly wished to help out the group in whatever way I can, the reality is that I am just one person of fairly humble circumstances. The idea was that I would certainly do my part, but others would also be participating. I am simply incapable of solving all gurukuli issues single-handedly, or of carrying the whole group forward on my own. Actually, it feels like a great relief and a great weight off my shoulders to leave all that stuff behind. I sometimes get the impression that others looked at me like a crazy man for even trying to work on that stuff in the first place. And then others have attacked me for trying, suggesting that I was “dubious,” “negative,” “uneducated,” “insensitive,” “idealistic,” “harsh,” “proud,” “annoying,” “aggressive,” and quite a bit more. Even just writing about leaving all this stuff behind is making me feel much better already.

    So that’s what I have to say. Interestingly, your site here did in fact prove useful for finding the essence, untangling life’s webs and so on, just as your title says. However, this will be my final post. Since I have cut all ties with the gurukulis, am not a gurukuli anymore, and am simply progressing on my own, I feel uncomfortable about continuing to participate any further. So it’s been good to discuss for this short time, and I wish you well with everything. I’ll sign off with a last quote from Bhagavad-gita 5.24:

    yo ‘ntah-sukho ‘ntar-aramas
    tathantar-jyotir eva yah
    sa yogi brahma-nirvanam
    brahma-bhuto ‘dhigacchati

    One whose happiness is within, who is active within, who rejoices within and is illumined within, is actually the perfect mystic. He is liberated in the Supreme, and ultimately he attains the Supreme.

    Ever Onward, Aniruddha das Sherbow.

    Comment by Aniruddha d.B. Sherbow | October 22, 2006 | Reply

  13. Aniruddha,

    As gurukulis move on with our lives we often find ourselves with less and less in common if all we have to rely upon is our shared experiences from 20 years ago. Our relationships have to evolve in order to remain relevant. Sometimes those relationships are worth the endeavor, sometimes they aren’t.

    I can relate to your descriptions of feeling isolated and unappreciated. At various times in my life I’ve felt similarly. Some times I find myself more inspired to get involved, other times I need time and space to find my focus and direction in life. When one is feeling alone and overwhelmed it makes sense to seek out a more supportive environment.

    I am glad to know that our conversations were helpful in focusing your efforts. Please know that you’re welcome to contact me any time. Whenever you feel inspired, drop me a note.

    In closing, I want to relay a message to you. I recently received a private message from your uncle, Allen. He asked me to convey to you that he and and your aunt love you and would like to communicate with you. 

     Below is his contact information. 

    email: allen011 at

    Phone: (973) 696-3145

    Hoping your happiness comes from within…

    Comment by chaitanyamangala | November 1, 2006 | Reply

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